Day 100: The First Big Question Worth Pondering

Here goes. Tackling new things isn't easy for me. Just one of the many things I guess I need to put on my "To Do" list for turning 50. 50! Me! I have four kids, all now teenagers, my husband turned 50 several years ago, things are sagging (I'm pretty sure my pot belly is actually breast tissue, which would make my sagging ass brain tissue), and I need to start wearing bifocals since I can no longer see anything with contacts. The boring and depressing list is endless.

And yet I honestly don't feel 50. I still get zits. I still blast music in the car and dance while I'm driving. I'm still insecure. I still crave snack food cakes (I was proudly inducted into the Swiss Roll Hall of Fame in my late teens and, when put to the test a few years back, was able to identify Suzy-Qs, Ring Dings, Ho Hos and Devil Dogs while blindfolded). As David Byrne so eloquently put it, "Well, how did I get here?"

My goal is to spend the 100 days leading up to my 50th birthday pondering this question and others of lesser import. Like, what day am I actually supposed to begin?! How typical is it that I can't figure out whether the 100th day is the day before my birthday or the day of? So I'm just jumping in, hoping, if not for total clarity, then at least for improved vision...